To Maryam, my mimi. these 3 months have been an experience. i've encountered so many new, unfamiliar emotions. i'm sure u have too. its been wonderful. wonderfully kinda scary? not using scary as a negative connotation. more as in, i love it. its powerful. what i feel is powerful and new and its making me persevere thru things i wouldn't normally. and i do it for us. u make my life so cool. u make me a better person. i've never really been this excited for the future before you. you've changed me, but not in some way where my personality is different; you've made me pull deep into me and bring the positive traits in me to come out. u have that kinda impact on me. life feels a lil more colourful now. the yearning for you is something i never had felt before. i haven't really cared for anyone as i do you. im not alone anymore. theres someone who cares for me like alot. im still getting used to that fact now and then. what an amazing fact it is. i know the distance sucks and i know we both wish to be with each other in the flesh. but every call never bores me. every call. whether a 3 hour convo sesh, a 2 hour me not having anything to say and ur helping me. 1 hour where we both not feeling it. i love it all. i love being with you. and every talk i learn something new about you. i fall in love even more. i'm falling more and more the more i know you. its so fun. you're so special to me and u hold dear to my heart. i think about you constantly. i think about our future together. i think about 3 months later. i think about our fingers interlocking, i think about us laughing, i think about the hugs, the kisses, i think about my hands on ur waist, i think about ur smile. i get the biggest dopamine hits seeing u smile and with joy. it gives me the biggest joy seeing u in ur element. i adore ur sides. i love meeting new maryams. the cute needy one, the cheeky funny one, the smart gorgeous one. all of you just radiate the shine of ur femininity. i love you and im so proud of you. of what u have done already, what u plan to do and i see u working towards it so dont feel let down by not feeling ur not progressing or moving as fast as u had hoped to; baby i know u got this; so dont feel too rushed. i just wanna protect your peace. i want u to be able to do all of what u want to do. we been thru alot already. the boat has been shaky a few times here and there. but im ready for it all. no boat goes thru the sea unscathed, but its knowing what to do when the storms hit cuz they do hit. first of all i hate it, i hate it when we fight; argue; do anything that makes my baby upset. it doesn't feel good for both of us i know. but it happens. we are both learning about each other everyday and we both have our own thoughts and sometimes we can have a differing of opinions. but its about communicating and learning to understand where we are coming from. by the end of the day, month, year, century, ur the one i want by my side till the endtimes. so all the little squabbles, disagreements and etc... i know we can work thru it all. ur who i want by me. thru the bad, the good, the fun, the boring; you by my side always. i'm so glad to have you in my life. u deserve the world and more; and all i wanna do is spoil my woman with everything. i dont got anything rn but i got alot of hugs and kisses to give hehe. i love you <333 ps: scroll down; just a lil something i've been working on. forever yours, sultan