My first and final keeper of my heart. I am so happy that you're in my life once again. This feels different from before. A good type of different. I'm grateful just to have you in my life in any way; as a friend, as anything. But having you as my lover, as mine? That's all I ever wanted.
I have these nights where when I'm alone with my thoughts, I smile thinking about how lucky i am, how unreal this all feels, yet feels perfectly real at the same time. Like this is how it's supposed to be.
I love you more than ever. And that's why it hurts sometimes, not being able to see you; not being able to touch you. I never knew physical touch meant this much to me until you became mine. Now being apart from you just doesn't feel right. And I'm not sure if it's just me, but it seems everywhere I go now, I see couples. I can't unsee them. THEY'RE EVERYWHERE. And it's annoying because it reminds me of our distance. I wanna go on walks, go to the beach, the park... I literally don't care where we go as long as it's me and you.
Isn't it funny how we became each other's, and almost immediately faced our first obstacle: distance? At first, I saw it as my enemy. In some ways, I still do. But when I remind myself how temporary this is, how these months will pass, it becomes easier to breathe. Some days feel harder than others, I'll be honest. But anything worth having is worth waiting for. And you are worth everything to me. That's how I know you're the one for me. I don't know how I went years without you. Now I can't imagine a single day without talking to you.
That was supposed to be the end of the letter. But I still have more to say. You make me smile just by looking at you. I still get nervous sometimes when we talk. I get upset when you're not in my arms. You make everything feel right. And I wake up every morning with a smile on my face knowing I'll see your message first thing.
Happy Valentines Day. I love you my darling, My one and only.
forever yours,
[sultan]